I'm in a funk.

continuation of last post:

because I really liked the days when everyone had a blog and you could read about what other people were up to, thinking, etc.

I wish blogger was still popular.

When I look back at my blog I feel embarrassed about the amount of complaining I've done.

Some days I feel like I'm just floating through life. Some days I feel like I'm really living it.

I want to feel more like I'm living it everyday.

I really am a blue personality because this gets me every time

"You don't know," said Sissy, half crying, "what a stupid girl I am. All through school hours I make mistakes. Mr. and Mrs. M'Choakumchild call me up, over and over again, regularly to make mistakes. I can't help them. They seem to come naturally. (...) [T]oday, for instance, Mr. M'Choakumchild was explaining to us about Natural Prosperity. (...) And he said, Now, this schoolroom is a Nation. And in this nation there are fifty millions of money. Isn't this a prosperous nation? Girl number twenty, isn't this a prosperous nation, and an't you in a thriving state?"

"What did you say?" asked Louisa.

"Miss Louisa, I said I didn't know. I thought I couldn't know whether it was a prosperous nation or not, and whether I was in a thriving state or not unless I knew who had got the money, and whether any of it was mine. But that had nothing to do with it. It was not in the figures at all," said Sissy, wiping her eyes.

"That was a great mistake of yours," observed Louisa.

"Yes Miss Louisa, I know it was now. Then Mr. M'Choakumchild said he would try me again. And he said, This schoolroom is an immense town, and there are a million of inhabitants, and only five and twenty are starved to death in the streets, in the course of a year. What is your remark on that proportion? And my remark was-- for I couldn't think of a better one-- that I thought it must be just as hard upon those who were starved, whether the others were a million, or a million million. And that was wrong too."

"Of course it was."

Then Mr. M'Choakumchild said he would try me once more... And I find (Mr. M'Choakumchild said) that in a given time a hundred thousand persons went to sea on long voyages, and only five hundred of them were drowned or burnt to death. What is the percentage? And I said Miss;" here Sissy fairly sobbed as confessing with extreme contrition to her greatest error; "I said it was nothing."

"Nothing, Sissy?"

"Nothing, Miss-- to the relations and friends of the people who were killed. I shall never learn!"

-Charles Dickens, Hard Times p. 93-94.

At Last

https://cs.byu.edu/animation

How did this not occur to me until now?